Surrender

I might have been pretty slack recently. I was not reading any masterpieces and I was reading quite a few blogs. An Ashtanga blogger who use to be an aerobics teacher wrote that she finally surrenders her practice. The question is why we choose not to surrender in the first place. The opposite word is struggle. We often hear people talking about the struggles of life. Is it originated from the fact we are not surrendering? I can understand that there are certain things to be desired, such as being able to fully master the primary series. This is years of hard work. But what happens next? The intermediate series is a whole new aim. We are still not good enough. Or are we?
Oshu kept telling us we are already good enough. My understanding is that we are not really good enough; otherwise there is no need for us to do anything. What is important is that the fact that we are not good enough is not important. My biggest desire today is to be able to practice with utmost concentration. However, my mind wanders during the practice. I use to blame myself when that happens. This is struggle. This is not surrender. My teacher said to me once that when that happens, just think about the duck in the water. The duck is in the water and yet it is not wet the moment it is on land. It shrugs off the water. The water simply cannot stay. So are our thoughts. It is not important when our mind wanders, when it happens, we just gently draw it back. If the duck complains about the water on its skin, it would not have been doing anything else. Whatever your imperfection is, it is not important. I guess that is why Guruji just say one thing: Practice and all is coming. It really includes all.